Yesterday was a total tragedy, i caught the 180 but i missed the 198 and 197. The fucking road reconstruction delayed my bus and ruined everything, had to take a cab home in the end. The entire tragedy brought great disatisfaction today to me. Felt really guilty about something i have done, but what is done cannot be undone, in adddition what i did was for the greater good. Just hope that things like this can be forgetten soon. Problem with me is that i remorse for a long period of time. Is there anyway i can make it up i would do so. It has been quite long that i am doing this, it seems that everything have gotten back on track again, honestly i hope i actually truly got back on track. I am not really sure whether what is going on is true or not, despite everything seems so real and feel so real. I just cannot help myself but be paranoid about. It is common for people to put up guard against something. I am not sure if i am putting up guard or just letting things be the way it is. These issues is occupying too much of my mine, it is time that i put a hold to all this unesscessary information and move on with life. I was really stuck in a helpless situation. What am i suppose to do? Fly Back? Defintely impossible. Enough about the tragedy. Things did not go well in school today too. Early in the morning i was alone in the back of the class in the three column table with two table unoccupied, Isaac came, Man fu came, however their presence did not make a little impact to me at all. Whatever it is, things only began to look up after recess, when is about 12already`. I seriously do not understand why would my principal choose recess over lunch hour, which is like normally workaholic schedule. Anyway the recess part was not important. Had english after recess and it was kind of normal. Then came maths when the worksheet was given out, finally something that occupied my mind. After that was some english pratice session, that i should confess was the most happy part of the day. Good moments do not last, after that came chemistry and the end of school. Despite all the happening i still cannot get over the tragedy that took place, i want to and do not want codemn anyone for the incident. All i could do is to bear full responsibilty, and hope that i will be bless and make it through O'levels alive.
