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Freedom!... boldunderlinestrike
this few days have been like that. No choice either what can i do? i take it as i am giving it a try. Afterall somehow or rather at some point of time we'll have to face it. Happiness cant be force, i just take one week break and see what happens next. you seems be enjoying life, guess i need to re evaluate my plans about the future.I mean better that things happen now than happen during the marriage. Give everyone the chance to think through. I can take this a way to improve my english too. I know it tough but its true. Best that i can do, just wait? This artice isn't just a post, its a reflection. Personally i feel that with or without, it make no difference now, maybe it would as time goes by, but for now, without my O's , the future is nothing. I do not have the time for this insignificant thing. Time for me to diappear from twitter again. I have been hiding in this macdonald for quite some time, honestly i am getting reallly tired of it. I really dont know what to do. It a push and pull factor, it help me study for my O's but at the same time it make me feel depressed. What i really want is the support from the loved one and not ignorance from the loved one. This is what i have been receiving now. This feeling seriously is killing me, i want it but i can't get it. It make me feel like i am the incompetent one. However hard i try, something just seems to be lacking. I sort of predicted what will happen earlier and it did. I know this would happen one day, guess i know you quite well already, but you don't know me just yet. i dont want to apologise, cause i have been wasting my time waiting instead of spending quality time together. 31 minutes spend together in a week is just absurd. i meant you are not there to give me support its fine, but there's not even effort to spent time together. I count every minute, cause you'll never know the when the world is gonna end, your perspective is just not realevant, unti l marriage, look at what is happening now, the main point is would there even be one? give careful thought about it, dont say i do just because you are happy, i do cause i really do. Give a sincere i do and not a i do for satisfaction. This immaturiy got to stop at some point of time. Marriage isn't just about being happy, its about the devotion to the vow, i cannot continue to be childish with you, i have exceed the age and i need to know how to face the real world. Things would not be resolve with just a i love you. 5 years i very long, i hope you would slowly mature and our marriage would turn out to be a beautiful one. I know i can be very immature at times, but i am only immature in doing crazy and irrevalant things that would not hold me back in life. I hope you will forgive me for my perception of you and the insecurities i have given you. Just know 人生是不停的战斗。
// 8:33 PM
If i was given to write on the topic blessing again, this is how it be like.
Blessings
What are blessings? Is it just a term people use in chruch, wedding or when an relationship come to an end and you gives blessing to another party for the better or the worse. My perspection towards blessing is that. The sincere last words, you would give to a person when they are moving to a new journey or a new part of life.
Blessing can be given when a person is going on a trip to a foreign country or will be away for a period of time. You give blessings to them, hopefully they will have a safe trip to their destinations and they will come back peacefully and not in pieces. Just saying becasue incident occurs, and there no guarantee that everyone that have been through will make it through. During a journey many things are lost, materialistically, physically and mentally. A blessing would give someone an reason to come back, a reason to remember, a reason to be jubilant, that someone is there for them.
Never mind i think is out of point already shall not continue on it.
祝福也是一种幸福。
Friday, September 28, 2012 // 1:39 AM
Better to be safe than sorry. 不说一下话不要紧的啦。有话明天再说.
// 1:31 AM
I can't believe i can still post my draft post. sadly can't minimize this thing otherwise it would ce super awesome let continue. i Bcan't see wilt i typing the content might ce a bit weird please bear with me. well i was left choiceless. why unhappiness about certain things and rather just keep quiet about it. why?cause i don't want any trouble. the benefitsof this is that i can improve on my English. isncan't 't tthat great well. i seriously the scrolling issue is killing me. maybe i am just nonot used to it. no wonders.
// 1:21 AM
Yeah man, Finally created this fucking private blog, for what sake? For people who know me and wants me to be myself. LOL. This is my attitude, i dont fuck care bout what you think. I happy can already.
