Hello there earthlings,my name is __JIn Chia__. and thank you for landing upon my blog.
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Freedom!... boldunderlinestrike
I have no heart in this relationship already. .its really hard,我已经喜欢别人了。 Just wanna let you know, that i appreciate all the effort you put in me, thanks for the motivation for me to study, thank you for being there for me when i am upset, thank you for staying by my side, thank you for being always forgiving towards me and thank you for letting me lie on your shoulder :p I know you dont let but i still lie. hehe.
That's my thanksgiving and i am really sorry.
Thursday, January 27, 2011 // 8:37 PM
Why are you always like reminding yourself off him, despite what he have done to you?? You're not at fault, i would really hate you if you had play it cool with him, a good boyfriend that really love his girlfriend, will never leave her or ask her for break no matter what kind of shit she give him, obviously he SUCKS as your boyfriend, he can god damn go screwed himself... I really dont like it whenever you say how you wish you and him could still be together... IF you two were still together, things wont be so complicated for me, there will be lesser problem i need to worried bout, i wont be by your side at all, cause there is someone else there for you already. But i rather you two are not together, even though it is gonna be tough on me... Life is like that, what to do... Honestly if you still like him, i do anything to stop you, even if i have to take the risk, or even hurt those around me...
Anyway i found this like on fb it is kinda coolz. having a best guy friend is incredible
he's there to make you l a u g h on the days you want to cry he's the only one you talk to when other friends say goodbye he's the star to you're sky, or an angel from above awh best friends forever? that's until you fall in love.
Wednesday, January 26, 2011 // 9:23 PM
Sometimes i really envy them, why they can be so sweet, why is the love so long lasting... Why cant i be like them? I really wish that things can be better for me, i dont ask for too much, i dont expect kisses, hugs and etc... All i wants is just someone shoulder's that i can lie on, lols epic, anyhow only. All i want is just someone which i can stay by side with.
Monday, January 24, 2011 // 9:11 PM
The reason why not is because, i dont love you anymore... What hazimah said last year was true, I was the one who was mixed up, she said i loved you but i claimed that i treat you as a crush, cause it you said it was impossible i dont wanna harbour any hope for you at that of point cause i felt that there wont be any outcome. I convince myself that i love someone else all the while, even when you confess, i still to myself that i love someone else i cant weaver... I didn't mean to reject you or something, i am just confused by the things around, up till now i seriously dont know how i feel i am serious! Maybe i shouldn't have told you in the first place how i felt towards you, cause it was all too late, all this while it was too late, i cant bring myself to tell the truth, i wanted hafeez to be with you so that you will forget my love for you totally... cause i dont even know it is true or not... Maybe i was drunk, i was insane, i went out of my mind, i got possesed or something... I just dont feel right telling you all those things, it was just my fault, screwed myself, i was even later than you by a lot a lot later... This should have came from me years ago maybe months ago after 2010 July, but you were attached i cant say anyting or do anyting, then it drag on until someone else came to take your place in my heart, that is when my love life is totally messed up!!! Everything change after the ring thing start... Maybe i made a mistake by buying the ring, maybe things are fated to be this way, but one thing i know, my heart is tied down... I cant love you, there will be many objection and many people getting hurt... Especially Hafeez and Gina, i made a promise to her, even if she give me shit i'll have to accept it, this is life what can i do... Even though the feelings for her is not there, or maybe there still is, idk seriously... I'll never do anything that'll hurt both of them... Sorry that i stir up everything and confuse you... Forget bout my love for you, forget bout your promise to me, hate me if you want to, i dont expect you to forgive, i was wanna let you to know that i am sorry...
Thursday, January 20, 2011 // 10:46 PM
Today had quite a lot of fun in school, Lols. Went to eat with dong, krystal, feez and angel at JP, Ate a lot a lot :P Then after that went back to school for someone in particular, just worried that the person might be bored... Anyway really enjoyed myself while playing guitar in class, lols even though i didn't get to play a proper song. :P At least i get to sing love story and about a girl, too bad you didn't get to hear me sing love story. :P
One song about a girl Can't breathe when I'm around her I wait here everyday In case she'll scratch the surface She'll never notice...
I'm not in love This is not my heart I'm not gonna waste these words About a girl
Last night, I knew what to say But you weren't there to hear it These lines, so well rehearsed Tongue-tied and overloaded You never notice
I'm not in love This is not my heart I'm not gonna waste these words About a girl
I'm not in love This is not your song I'm not gonna waste these words About a girl
To be loved, to be loved What more could you ask for? To be loved, to be loved Everyone wants to be loved, to be loved What more could you ask for? To be loved, to be loved Everyone
I'm not in love This is not my heart I'm not gonna waste these words
I'm not in love This is not my heart I'm not gonna waste these words About a girl
I'm not in love This is not your song I'm not gonna waste these words About a girl
Tuesday, January 18, 2011 // 9:53 PM
i think at this point of time, all i can say is it is over, i guess, no matter what happen i would be moving on. I cant hold back like i used to, things just gets more complicated each times i take a step back. You were really great, i made the biggest mistake by giving up on you. I am just like any other guy, i am not perfect, i smoke, i drink(last time), i fight... Just like hafeez he is no different from me, although we both have many flaws, our heart is truly sincere, though we have made mistake in the past by loving others, but our determination never change, the momment we found our true love, we never ever want to leave, but sadly someone have to do it, well i made the choice, cause i have no faith in myself that i will love you as much as he does, maybe i would, i wont know, but i just dont trust myself, what matters the most is that we are happy this way, that would be satisfactory.
Monday, January 17, 2011 // 9:56 PM
I fall asleep by the telephone It's 2 O'clock and I'm waiting up alone Tell me where have you been? I found a note with another name You blow a kiss, but it just don't feel the same Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever While you try to play it cool You can hide behind your stories But don't take me for a fool
You look so innocent But the guilt in your voice gives you away Yeah you know what I mean How does it feel when you kiss when you know that i trust you And do you think about me when he fucks you? Could you be more obscene?
So don't try to say you're sorry Or try to make it right Don't waste your breath because it's too late, it's too late.
You can tell me that there's nobody else (But I feel it) You can tell me that you're home by yourself (But I see it) You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want But I know, I know, Your love is just a lie
This post is for my wonderful ex who have hurt me upteem times...
Sunday, January 16, 2011 // 9:59 PM
Admit it, my life is pathetic, i dont get to be together with the one i love.
// 9:45 PM
Life is just like that, sometimes sacrifices have to be made. That guy loves you and i love you too, but he is my best friend, i dont wanna to hurt him by fighting over for you, i am also afraid that i'll hurt you in the midst of it, i am afraid that i cant give you happiness i am afraid that i dont love you as much i really do deep inside, i am afraid we will get into unessecary agruement between us that will break apart our friendship, i really hope you will understand what i am going through, i just wanna you to know that i love you as always and i wont leave you, so please dont leave me.
